The Ego Bites the Dust

O-U-C-H.

I just finished my OCI round (actual OCI interviews, not resume collections). I applied to 17 firms/agencies participating in OCI this fall.

I got 10 screening interviews and ONE callback interview which I had last Friday.
I got my rejection letter from that firm today. I cannot believe how easy it is to make me feel completely worthless as a human being.

What was the point of doing well in 1L--well enough to transfer up a tier--having a great summer internship I worked my butt off both to get and then to do well in, and joining and working my butt off for a journal only to have every single door slammed in my face?

I haven't felt this low in years. I didn't even feel this bad when I got my first legal writing assignment handed back to me. I guess I could blame it on the economy and that DC is a tough market, but that's just not my style. I have to own my failures just as surely as I own my successes, and Dear GOD have I failed.

How awful an interviewer must I be? I'm good enough on paper to get a more than 50% return on my applications, but only good enough in person to get a 10% return, and on closer examination, that drops to 0%. Christ. Maybe I should hire someone else to interview for me from now on.

I just want to go home, pull the covers over my head and cry myself to sleep. What a shitty day, at the culmination of 2 shitty months.